This one was the most challenging for me because of how embarrassed I felt during and after. I went to order a sandwich for lunch. It seems like a simple task to do,but just the thought of it made me not want to get the sandwich and just wait until I was home to eat. But, I did it anyway. As I was talking to the girl and stuttered a little bit, she just starred at me. As I was ordering 2 other girls just stood there and starred at me as well, I guess to see how strange I seemed at ordering a simple meal.
It made me feel really self-conscious of myself and like I said earlier, to the point that I didn't even want to make the order because I knew they would sit and judge me. It also made me feel really bad about myself, as if I really had a stutter. I just wanted to take my food and run!
But no matter the embarrassment I felt, the fact of the matter is that I don't have to live with this for the rest of my life. There are many people who deal with this on a regular basis and don't have the ability to turn it off like I did. I have only come in contact with one person in my life who has a stutter, and I don't know them very well. I used to just think "Just say what you need to" but it is not that simple.
I learned that I need to be more patient with those that have a stutter and be loving towards them. If we judge them and see them as flawed, then their desire to communicate with other people will decrease.
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